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I'd never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go to
You open the door
There's so much more
I've never seen it before
I was trying to fly
But I couldn't find wings
But you came along and you changed everything

I've watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes
And you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

Baby you showed me what living is for
I don't wanna hide anymore

(Taylor Swift)

Dedicated to Firman Rahmadi who always make me laugh, smile, or even drive me mad concurrently. And.. oh! it's crazy little thing called LOVE.

Why you gotta be so mean?

You, with your words like knives and swords and weapons that you use against me
You have knocked me off my feet again got me feeling like I'm nothing
You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard, calling me out when I'm wounded
You, pickin' on the weaker man

Well, you can take me down with just one single blow
But you don't know what you don't know

Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

You, with your switching sides and your walk-by lies and your humiliation
You, have pointed out my flaws again as if I don't already see them
I'll walk with my head down trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you
I just wanna feel okay again

I'll bet you got pushed around, somebody made you cold
But the cycle ends right now 'cause you can't lead me down that road
And you don't know what you don't know

Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

And I can see you years from now in a bar, talking over a football game
With that same big loud opinion but nobody's listening
Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things
Drunk and grumbling on about how I can't sing

But all you are is mean
All you are is mean and a liar and pathetic and alone in life
And mean, and mean, and mean, and mean

But someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean, yeah
Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

(by Taylor Swift)

to my bestfriend(s)

 I'm Only Me When I'm With You
by Taylor Swift

Friday night beneath the stars
In a field behind your yard
You and I are paintin' pictures in the sky
And sometimes we don't say a thing
Just listen to the crickets sing
Everything I need is right here by my side
And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

Just a small town boy and girl
Livin' in a crazy world
Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true
And I don't try to hide my tears
The secrets or my deepest fears
Through it all nobody gets me like you do
And you know everything about me
You say that you can't live without me

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

When I'm with anybody else, it's so hard to be myself
Only you can tell

That I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
the other half I'm only trying to let you know
that what I feel is true

And I'm only me
Who I wanna be
Well, I'm only me when I'm with you
With you

cuma sahabat-sahabat gue yang bisa bener-bener bikin gue percaya diri.

bikin gue bener-bener ketawa dengan segala tingkah laku freak mereka.

bikin gue ngelupain sejenak masalah-masalah yang ada.

bikin gue ngerasa bersyukur dengan keadaan.

cuma sahabat-sahabat gue yang paling seru buat diajak ngegosip.

cuma sahabat-sahabat gue yang bisa bikin gue jadi apa adanya.

cuma sahabat-sahabat gue yang bisa ngontrol gue supaya hidup gue tetep "lurus"

yaaaah..

meskipun kadang gue suka susah buat ngejaga friendship kita biar ttp keep contact

kadang suka lupa ulangtahun mereka

kadang gak ada pas mereka lagi butuh gue

but.....

do you know how much i love you, my bestfriends?

it's big. almost HUGE

and i hope you all know about it :)

Keep on waiting.....

by BBMAK

Miss You More

There are so many reasons that I find to run to you
Cos there's so little loving in my life, now I am wawy
And thinking about it I want things back how they used to be
There is no way round it, nothing good comes easily
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong

[Chorus]
So here I am all by myself thinking of you nobody else
There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try it just won't go away
Are you finding it hard it all on your own
Having to face each night alone
Knowing that you are the one with the love that I need
And I miss you more each day

So many feelings emotions running away with me
Cos it's you I believe in and I love this one so deep
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
Now I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong
Back where I belong

So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong
Back where I belong



        ......dedicated to my boy who stay in another country

Our music, Our love

Hari ini tepat gue sama A.R. udah in relationship for 14 months. huaaaaah gak berasa tiba-tiba udah lebih dari setahun dia ada di hidup gue. Nemenin hari-hari gue, bikin gue senyum-senyum sendiri, bikin gue badmood seharian, bikin gue nangis, bikin gue curiga, bikin gue berbunga-bunga, bikin gue tertawa, udah gue rasain selama setahun 2 bulan sama dia. meskipun sekarang kita LDR (Long Distance Relationship), A.R. kuliah di Malaysia sedangkan gue kuliah di Bandung, tapi (mudah-mudahan) it doesnt affect anything for our love ya :)

         "HAPPY 14th MONTHS MY BELOVED BOY!"

lucu kalo inget dulu sampe sekarang dia hobi ngegombal sampe gue melting *lebay* lewat lagu-lagu yang dia kasih ke gue haha.

ini lagu pas gue sama dia blm jadian. dia ngasih lagu ini ke gue, mungkin berharap gue bisa langsung putusin cowok gue yang sebelumnya dan jadian sama dia. padahal, gak ngaruh tuh HUH! (padahal.....)

  

trus ini lagu pas kita akhirnya bener-bener jadian, 2 bulan setelah gue putus sama si mantan haha :p

  

Jadi inget pas relationship kita di lagi di ambang batas jurang kehancuran yang paling terjal (apa-apaan sih nih bahasa gue??) karena dia ngelakuin a big mistake and it made me hurt

but, i tried to gave him second changed :)

we're still together even seperated by the distance :')

dan ini backsound yang paling sering di-play kalo kita lagi telfon-telfonan :)

sebenernya masih banyak lagu-lagu lain yang ngegambarin relationship kita. tapiii... sekarang udah jam setengah 3 pagi dan mata gue udah kriyep-kriyep 5 watt (ngantuk maksudnya hehe). kasur, bantal, dan temen-temennya udah siap buat gue tibanin tuh.


yaaa wish gue, semoga apapun yang terjadi kita selalu diberi kemudahan untuk menjalaninya yaaa, and of course, may our love still have the colors like the colors of our music :)
      amiiin..

here he is, A.J. Rafael

Ada yang tau atau pernah denger nama singer ini? A.J. Rafael is a newcomer multitalented artist. Selain teknik vokal yang gak diragukan lagi dan kemampuannya sebagai a songwriter, dia juga a master of keys, ukulele, guitars, and drums. lagu-lagu ciptaan dia overall bergender pop acoustic.

Mungkin karena dia pendatang baru di dunia musik dan belom banyak orang yang tau, gue jadi agak susah search biography nya di internet. A.J. Rafael sebenarnya asli orang Phillipines, tapi dia sekarang stay di Moreno Valley, California. dia lahir tanggal 10 Mei (gak tau tahun berapa) as a Catholic. dari salah satu website, gue baru tau alasan kenapa high quality singer seperti dia gak mau terlalu gencar mempromosikan talentnya. ternyata dia gak mau dengan bermusik ini dijadiin alasan utama untuk komersil. ya, Rafael ingin mencoba menginspirasi banyak orang to have music in their lives and stresses that things like popularity and money, all of it is temporary, but music is forever. itulah keyakinan yang ada di dirinya.

   "all of it is temporary, but music is forever"

apa alasan gue nge-posting tentang dia? awalnya, gue suka banget sama lagu dia judulnya She Was Mine, yang bercerita tentang cowok pernah punya relationship sama cewek, tapi karena udah lama gak ketemu selama bertahun-tahun, mereka gak pernah kontak-kontak an lagi. ini potongan liriknya:

So I'm going through these boxes, my life's gone off track
It's been three years, she hasn't written back
But in my eyes, she's still mine
And I know it sounds so stupid to be waiting this long
But I'm still in love, and I know I'm not wrong
Cause in my eyes, she was mine
   No matter where you go, I won't be very far
   Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are
   Cause love has no distance baby
   Love, love has no distance baby
   No, not when it comes to you and me

aaaaaaa so sweet banget kan liriknya haha apalagi diiringin instrument acoustic yang sederhana tapi asik banget didengernya, bikin gue gak bosen ulang-ulang lagu itu berapa kali pun ♥

trus gue browsing lagu-lagunya yang lain. wah gak kalah enak! kayak We Could Happen, Without You, When We Say, dan lagu-lagu lainnya. Rafael juga biasa ngecover lagu dan di upload di YouTube. udah lebih dari 200,000 subscribers dan 40 juta views di YouTube. Fanpage nya di Facebook juga udah mencapai 70,000 fans dan 11 juta orang plays his song on MySpace.

ini dia video She Was Mine yang bikin gue fall in love for the first time sama Rafael's music

dan ini We Could Happen, how lucky the girl in this video to have a nice guy like him ;)

A.J. Rafael kayaknya berhasil bikin kita, terutama gue, tambah CINTA SAMA MUSIK :D